Filming a YouTube video about Inner Awakening in Thailand

Filming a YouTube video about Inner Awakening in Thailand

Monday, April 11, 2011

Teleported by Vibhooti

While Swamiji was busy teleporting vibhooti out of the ashram, Vibhooti was busy teleporting me into it! 

Yes, you read that correctly.

I'd like to share this wild experience with you, that has completely blown my mind. (And Ma Nthya Vibhooti's mind, too!) It seems worth sharing, because it's proof that We are One- a belief that is dear to my heart (hence the title of this blog) and now, more and more clearly, this One-ness is not only an understanding, but also an experience.

As you probably know, Ma Vibhooti is back at the Bidadi ashram, providing Slovakian translations for a group of Inner Awakening participants. Like we all do when someone we know is going to Bidadi, I asked her if she would hug the Banyan Tree for me, and tell Dakshinamoorthi that I love Him.

About two nights later, while doing the 'Beam of Light' samyama process Swamiji initiated us into, (whereby we envision a light beam extending from the crown of our head, which is enhanced by wearing the mala as a circlet) something very unusual happened. Normally, when I do this (or any other samyama) I keep my eyes closed; but this time, I heard an inner voice say, "Open your eyes." 

When I opened them, I saw the most beautiful being of golden light standing at the foot of my bead. As if transfixed, I watched the magnificent presence of this golden light being, until the same inner voice said, "Now, close your eyes."

I closed them, and fell back into my meditative space, and the inner voice said, 'Watch."

Since the voice didn't specify for me to open my eyes, I 'watched' my closed eyelids. My inner space started to expand, until I was not just watching my eyelids, but simultaneously seeing every direction, and felt the inner space expanding. Then the being of golden light merged into me. He seemed to come in through my eyelids, which were like a mere smokescreen separating two forms of reality. Although the eyelids were there, I could see right through them, so that my inner world, and also the outer world, blended together. In time, the golden being dissipated until it had evenly permeated not only my entire body, but also, the entirety of my expanded awareness, for which I couldn't determine a starting point or end; I felt it had become a part of me, and that we were infinite.

"Now open your eyes again," the inner voice said.

When I opened my eyes again, instantly I returned to my usual state, and my bedroom was back to normal. ('Normal' meaning, there weren't any celestial golden light-beings! At least, not that I could see...) Just to test myself, I closed my eyes again, but this time, I couldn't see through the eyelids, and the vision was only singularly focused. Since the experience had 'ended' I took my legs out of padmasana, lay back, and went to sleep.

All that night (April 7th) I had the most incredible dreams. All of them took place in the Bidadi Ashram. 

In the first dream, I was sitting in the front seat of a car. 'We' (me and one ashramite, who was driving) were idling in front of the Manasa Sarovar. I felt extreme bliss, and told him to just keep the car there. My gaze was transfixed on the island in the middle of the Sarovar, where I could simultaneously see multiple 'other realities' super-imposed, one on top of another. 

(If you've been to Bidadi, you'll know the place. The Manasa Sarovar is the small lake next to the Vaidya Sarovar. In the center, there's a circular island that Swamiji sits on to conduct the Zen Tea session for Inner Awakening.)

The 'scenes' that were super-imposed on top of this view were very mystical. You can imagine it like this: If you've ever looked at a 3-d scene through s 'view-finder' toy, you know that what you're looking at is a holographic image. Now, imagine looking at that kind of a holographic image, and behind it, there is another holographic image, and behind that, another, and another, and another. (Or- even better than  'behind,' we can say, along with it, another. They all occupied the same space.) It seems impossible, but somehow, these multiple realities were all together, yet each one was distinguishable from each other one. If you've ever looked at your reflection on a window pane, it was kind of like that, multiplied- you see your reflection on the window, and also the scene behind the glass.

In one 'scene' a giant tree grew out from the central island; in another simultaneous scene, the same island was bare. In one scene, a group of 'water spirits' were playing in the lake, but simultaneously, the lake was empty. Some scenes were likened to "other times" and some were contemporary. Along with this, there was a hazy memory of a past life that's too complex to even try to describe. 

After a while, we drove a few feet, and stopped again in front of the Vaidya Sarovar. After looking joyfully at the Ananda Lingam, I rested my head on the car window, and positioned myself to see the clouds in the sky. It was twilight, and though the sky was gray, I thought, very deliberately, "This is really happening. You can't judge the reality of a vision based on the colour theory while looking at a gray sky." The thought came as a joke, as if I was making fun of myself for having a doubt on the grounds that later, I might wake up and assume it was only a dream, since the gray sky looked to be in black and white.

(Swamiji has told us that when we see Him in a dream, if He appears before us in full colour, then it's not just an ordinary dream, it's a vision. It seems, through my own thoughts, I was telling myself that I was having a vision, not just a dream. It's funny, because all of the various scenes that I had witnessed over the Manasa Sarovar appeared in full colour, but only while looking at the gray sky, the thought came up that it was happening in sleep state. Along with that came a very, very intense realization that this is how Masters sees the world: as a multi-dimensional happening. It wasn't a verbalized realization, it was more of an 'ah-ha' moment. Like, if you hear someone describe snow, but you've never seen it, you might imagine little ice pellets, until one day, you see flakes, and realize, "Oh- so this is snow.") 

Then the dream changed. In an instant, like the snap of a finger, I went from being inside the car, to being outside in the open air, by the Banyan Tree. I walked around the tree, hugged it, connected with it, and simply enjoyed it's presence. I heard 'myself' speaking to it, but paid no attention to anything 'I' was saying. Next, I climbed up to Dakshinamoorthi, took His blessing, and said, "Sudevi loves you." After that, I sat down to meditate.

This is where the dream gets very ephemeral: from within 'myself,' I jumped out, and rushed back to Dakshinamoorthi. I hugged Him tightly and felt intense ecstasy! I was suddenly so thrilled to be there that I can't even describe it in words. It was like my being found fulfillment, knowing that I was really there once again, at the ashram. After hugging Dakshinamoorthi, I prostrated to Him, and went back into myself under the Banyan tree. From then, I had no more dreams.

The next morning, a message came from Vibhooti. She told me that she had visited the Banyan Tree and Dakshinamoorthi for me, and asked me to watch for a sign to make sure they got my message! 

Without hesitation, I wrote her a detailed description of my ashram dreams. 

What she wrote back about this was simply amazing: at exactly the same time I had these dreams, she was there! Not only that, she had done exactly what I had dreamed and in the same order I had dreamed it! (Meaning, first she went around the banyan tree, then to Dakshinamoorthi, then to sit under the tree.) In the note I sent her, I said that when I woke up, I thought it was odd to have said, "Sudevi loves you," instead of "I love you." Of course, that's was because Vibhooti had said, "Sudevi loves you." 

As if that's not enough, it gets even more amazing: when she sat down to meditate, she had a thought that instead of just giving a message to Dakshinamoorthi for me, it would be better if I told Him that I love Him for myself. So, she set a strong intention for me to come through her body, and go to Him. This part, I'll let you read in her own words:

"I decided to close my eyes, and let your being come out of my being and do what it wants. What you did is you were dressed in a white gown, and a white shawl, just like the one you are on the picture with Dakshinamurty during LBE. You were not wasting your time, you walked out of my soul, came up to Dakshinamurty, hugged him, you were not very decent, you were very touchy and huggy, you hugged him tightly. You weren't speaking, you were expressing everything through your movements and energy only. I know you bowed down to him in you heart, said you loved him, thanked him for his presence in your life. Then you came back and settled inside my body again.

It was an amazing experience for me. Of course, at that time I had no idea how real it was, but now I know.

In the mean time when I was there the evening arti started. So I went to the temple and sat at the side of the main sancti sanctorum, on the left side of Anandeshwara and Anandeshwari. 
I then asked him for a special sign for Sudevi in any form that you would be able to recognize to prove his presence in Vancouver with you. I said that you are a very special person to me and that I really want you to have this experience."

There is no doubt in my mind that all this really happened, since my dream matched perfectly with Vibhooti's experience. Although I knew I had asked her to pass a message of Love from me to the Deities, we didn't plan what time she would do this, and so I made no subconscious or unconscious attempt to imagine her doing it. (And, for the record, I'm a little bit embarrassed that she says I wasn't very decent with Dakshinamoorthi, lol. I don't think I did anything inappropriate, though- nothing we don't all do when we hug a beloved one after a long time apart!)

I am so, so, so grateful to Vibhooti for giving me this beautiful gift, of allowing me to come to Bidadi through her body. I don't even know what kind of a siddhi she has (or we both have together?) to do this, but no doubt, it comes from Swamiji. Thank you, my Nithya Sister Vibhooti, and thank you Gurudeva Nithyananda!

(Other synchronicities with Vibhooti: I drew the card of Vishnu for her from the Ascended Master Oracle, and in her reading, wrote that Vishnu is with her. She wrote back that Vishnu is her ishta devata! She told me that she was concerned about the extreme heat, so I told her I would pray to Babaji to send Himalayan cold front down to Bidadi. She said, she had been praying for Himalayan cold! That night, when I offered dinner to my picture of Swamiji, I set with it a glass og water full of ice cubes. Usually, when I make an offering to Swamiji, I don't put ice in the water, because He has said this is not yogic. So, as I offered Him the glass, I said, "Please give this to Vibhooti as a cool breeze or a cooling cloud." Swamiji's voice came into my mind, mocking me, saying, "So, now you make offerings to your friend through the Master, instead of to the Master through your friend, ma?" I apologized, and gave also a glass of ice-less water, as He likes it! I sat down to have my own food and water, with the same number of cubes in my glass. Something remarkable happened: within minutes, all the ice in the glass before Swamiji's picture was melted, and all the ice in my own glass was still solid! As if the heat of Bidadi had melted it, while my own was still just in Vancouver. The next message I received from Vibhooti, she was thanking me for my prayers, and saying that Bidadi had a cool breeze and some clouds to block the intense sun!)


What I find most astounding about this phenomenon between Vibhooti and me, is that in my dream, I didn't feel, 'Vibhooti is walking around the tree; Vibhooti is telling Dakshinamoorthi I love Him; I'm walking out of Vibhooti's body;" I felt as if I myself was doing all those things. Similarly, in her experience, she did all those things naturally. She walked around the tree, hugged Dakshinamoorthi, then sat down. She didn't feel 'me presence' in her, until she willed for me to come through her; only then she felt me as seperate, when I came out from within her soul. 

This really confirms something the masters have been telling us for ages- We Are All One! There was no "Vibhooti" and "Sudevi," there was just awareness walking around the Banyan Tree, hugging the Deity, sitting... 

When I shared this experience with Bhakthiroopini over the phone, she told me that during the Himalaya Yatra, Debbie looked at Raquel, and was amazed, because for a moment, she felt she was looking at herself. At another point in time, Raquel looked at Bhakthiroopini, and felt, Bhakthiroopini was herself. (The two of them had a beautiful exchange after that. Raquel called Bhakthiroopini "Raquel" and Bhakthiroopini called Raquel "Abirami"- which was then her name.) Another time, I was walking with Bhakthiroopini, and Mahima looked at us, and for a moment saw we were identical- looking so similar we could be sisters.

Somehow, through the power of Swamiji's grace, it seems our sangha is not only merging into Him, but also, into each other!

We've reached a point in our spiritual love that the disciple-disciple relationship is Heaven! We are truly Family! We are Love! We are One! 

In the early days of Dhyanapeetam, Swamiji said in a discourse that the connection we have must be with the Master, and only with the Master. That Master-Disciple relationship is Heaven, but Disciple-Disciple relationship is Hell. He said, we should be careful with whom we share our experiences, because some will judge or hurt us if they don't understand, and others may try to take away our deep connection out of jealousy, and others still will try to drag us into worldly affairs if we speak about only spirituality. 

How blessed are we to now be at a place where there seems to be no distinction between the Master -Disciple relationship, and the Disciple-Disciple one! We are All embodying Swamiji in different ways, and We are All able to see one another as Divine! 

This is the highest Prema Bhakthi! For me, this is the highest proof that Swamiji's grace is really landing on us, and His teachings are really working. Only a true Incarnation can create a sangha who love each other so deeply as to see themselves in each other. (And not in the sense that we see our faults in one another, but that we see our divinity reflected!) 

Remember, He once said that it's easy to love Him, but hard to love others? Thank you, thank you Nithyananda family, for proving that we can love each other!

If you're wondering whether or not you love your sisters and brothers in Nithyananda, here's what I mean:

Have you watched the emotionally charged video of Nithya Devi with kumkum on her palms, and felt, truly felt, the intense sacred sentiments she is so beautifully sharing? Seen her tears, and cried with her? Seen her reddened hands, and felt as if our own hands had been blessed? This is love for the Master, and also, love for one of His sincere devotees, Nithya Devi.

How many of us read Ravikiran Bankapur's Facebook notes, and get clicks from his wisdom? This is catching the enlightened understanding not only from Swamiji, but also, from one of His sincere devotees who truly understands the concepts and techniques of Living Enlightenment, and shares them through his own unique perception.

How many of us look at each other's pictures on Facebook and feel, these are our very own pictures? For example, the lovely photo of Manas and Jen's engagement posted by Ma Atmaniranjani. It is 'her' son who is getting married, but boy- do we ever feel 'her' maternal joy when we see the happy couple! This is love for the Master, and also love for an enlightened family being born out of His sangha! 

How many of us read the experiences and miracles posted on and feel blessed to be here now? Even though when we read these blogs, we are reading "somebody else's" experiences, we know that because "somebody else" shares, we are also experiencing! 

I could list examples all night long, and still only scratch the surface of the intense love that is flooding the planet now through all of us in this blissful community...

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, dear Nithyananda Family, for being a living example a true eNlightened community! Thank you for bringing the Sathya Yuga into the Kali Yuga.

Namaskar. I bow down in appreciation to All of Us- We are One. Nithyanandam! 


  1. Thank you so much for posting this BEAUTIFUL and Inspiring blog. Tremendous love!

  2. Thanks, 3 Yogis! Tremendous Love to you, too! Nithyanandam. <3