Let Go of Judgement to Find your Inner Master

One question I've been asked a lot lately is this: 

"How can I find answers for myself, without feeling a need for external validation?" 

Client after client is asking me, through the tarot cards, and in general, how they can tune in to their own innate wisdom, and essentially, become their own master. Some have told me they would like to learn to read tarot, others have said they want to start channeling, and others still have expressed a yearning to personally know the truth of divinity.  

As a reader deeply committed to the highest good of my clients, these questions are music to my ears! 

Since it can be of benefit to all of us, not just those who have asked, let me share with you all the answer I give to my clients when they are ready to embrace their gurus within.

First and foremost, before we can see our own divinity, find the Truth of our Being, and get the answers we seek from within our selves, we must let go the judgements we carry. 

All of them.

Only when there is no more judgement within us, we will be able to tune ourselves to the frequencies of Light, Love, and Highest Truth.

Extreme repatterning and redirection of our energy is needed to let go of all our judgement.

We are conditioned from birth to be judgemental. We enter this world directly into a society that harbors inner opinions and rigid definitions. We are taught by our parents, teachers and friends to feel apart from the rest. We are taught to have an ‘us against them’ attitude towards those we deem as ‘others’ in the world. And even within ourselves, we feel conflicted, torn apart, caught between various beliefs and self-imposed ideologies.

Letting go of judgementalism means feeling we are each a part, not apart. We each play a part in the play that is the world. We are united in our playing of these unique parts. We may each play a part, but that doesn't mean we must keep ourselves apart.

Some of our judgements can be called positive, some can be called negative, and some can be called neutral. A positive judgement would be, “I like this person.” A negative judgement would be, “I don’t like that person.” A neutral judgement would be, “I neither like nor dislike another person.”

It doesn’t matter whether we are holding good, bad or neutral judgements. Holding any judgements at all will prevent us from progressing on the path of spiritual discovery. 

Those who have found themselves to be masters, those who hear spiritual truth, those whom we elevate as harbingers of mystical fulfillment, are all inclusive, not exclusive. If we want to be like the saints we revere, we must also live in a state of non-jedgemental, inclusive, unconditionality.

Judgement excludes. 

Judgement sets apart. 

Judgement limits.

To awaken our inner master, we must be open, inclusive, and unlimited.

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Whenever I suggest that a client stop being judgemental, the inevitable follow-up question for me is, “How?”

How to stop being judgemental?

Look at the word. 

Judgemental. Judge-mental. It’s a mentality, which can only be sparked in the mind. Whenever we’re hindered by our judgement, the only way past the obstacle of our hinderance is by letting go of the restrictive thought patterning that led us into the judgement in the first place. 

There is no such word as judge-physical. Or judge-emotional. Or judge-spiritual. There is only judge-mental.

If we want to find truth, we have to drop our incessant judgement and instead live with innocence, love and bliss. We must center ourselves within our physicality, emotionality and spirituality, as much as we are already stuck in our mentality.

In so doing, we can become as inclusive as are the masters we revere!

Meditation is the key here. A dynamic meditation that works on all layers of our being- our physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies- is best. By setting a strong intention to let go of judgement while meditating deeply, we will All be able to find Truth. 

(Nithya Dhyaan and eN Kriya are excellent for this; and Inner Awakening is truly the greatest opportunity. www.nithyananda.org )

This statement I’m making is not morality. I’m not suggesting that everyone drop their judgement so that the world will become a better place. Of course, if we all drop our exclusivist judgements, the world will become a better place, but within the context of answering this question- how to find the inner master- letting go of judgement is not a moral stance, but a necessary first step.

This is not about right or wrong, good or bad. That labeling would only be more judgement. This is simple practicality.

We need not drop our judgement for the sake of those whom we are judging, we need only drop our judgement for the sake of creating the space within ourselves for something higher.

So long as we are overly judging and therefore overly mental, we will incessantly question not only others but also ourselves. That is what blocks us from finding our Truth.

With judgement, when we try to listen to our own inner voice, no matter how wise the message it has for us may be, we will not believe ourselves. 

Our judgement will cause us to say, “No, I can’t know what I know, because it’s only coming from me, and not from _________.” 

__________ can represent an advisor, psychiatrist, psychic, or guru. Anybody whom we judge is more in tune with truth than our own self.

The ‘I don’t believe it if it comes from me’ attitude, is self-judgement. 

There is no mind in which self-judgement and pure knowing of Truth can co-exist.

Whether we seek Truth from channeling, psychic intuitive opening, mystical revelation or the ultimate merging with God, letting go of judgement is the essential first step.

If we’re holding judgement, we do not have a clear picture of ourselves, or of those who live around us. Thus, we will always confine ourselves by mentally imposed limits. When, in such a state of limitation, a true message sneaks past our judgemental barricade and into our physical mind, we will disbelieve it, censor and condition that message of truth by contaminating it with what we think we know already.

As long as we have judgement in any part of our being, we will judge every part of our being.

We are all able to realize Truth. We are all divine, psychic and profoundly wise beings, who have forgotten our divinity, psychic ability and profound wisdom by adopting this habit of judging.

Judging is a habit. For some, it is an addiction. But, for all, it can be let go.

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When the time comes to let go of judgement, many often feel a deep fear of losing their identities.

It is not identity, though, but ego, that lives in judgement.

This fear is the result of societal propaganda, perpetuated by others who reinforce their judgements upon us, without knowing any better way of being, than in a state of judging.

We have learned to define ourselves by what we aren’t, rather than what we are.

Letting go of judgement allows us to see who we are, and who others are, as positive sparks of existence, not negative points of difference. Without the filters of judgement, we see valid reality, not an invalid opinion.

Without judgement, we know red is red because it is red. With judgement, we know only the partial truth that red is red because it is not blue.

Judgement is conditioned understanding of truth based on limitation and separation.

Non-judgement is open, trusting, innocent realization of pure truth. 

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Some will judge it as a disservice to their teacher to drop the judgements that prevent them from becoming their own source of divine understanding. They fear it will hurt their master if they become their own master. This is the very last judgement to drop. This is what masters are referring to when they say, “The last attachment to drop is the attachment to the form of the Master.”

A master- spiritual guru, divine teacher, whether living or ascended- will always lead us to our own Truth by helping us to drop our conditioned beliefs and judgements. But a true master will never hold us back, once we have dropped ALL other judgements, from dropping the final judgement we hold, which relates to the need for the master him or herself.

All good teachers will tell us that it's their job to put themselves out of business! 

Paramahamsa Nithyananda Swamiji, for example, has often said that he is here to awaken the inner guru within all of his followers; that he is here to turn his followers into Leaders. He assures us that he is not dependent on having disciples, or needy for devotees. 

One close devotee of Swamiji’s told me about a powerful dream experience she had of him. She said that in her dream, Swamiji appeared, and she reverently touched his feet. He asked her what blessing she wants, and she replied, filled with devotion, "Swamiji, I want to worship you always. Let me be your disciple in all your future incarnations!" He looked at her sternly, and asked, "Why do you always want to be my follower? When will you ask to become me!" 

In the profound book Living Enlightenment, Swamiji says very beautifully,

“Coming closer to the master is the path to becoming the master.” p.703

By experiencing the unconditional love and total acceptance of one who lives with pure Truth, we learn what it really means to be free from judgement. Masters show us, by living without any inner judgement themselves, that we, too, can not only survive, but thrive, by living a judgement free life.

“The purity in the relationship with the master,” says Swamiji, “is that there is no attempt to make something else of you. You actually love the master because he gives you the complete freedom to be just what you are with no strings attached.”

As the master does not judge, if we are to become like him, we must not judge.

What we need to do first to awaken our inner guru, then- to find leaders in our own selves, to know the Truth- is to simply relax and be ourselves completely. Without judgement.

Until such a time as this total relaxation happens, we must not look at the master, but rather, look to the master. Emulate the master. Catch the beingness of the master. See how he is, not just who he is, and be that way, also.

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The greatest revelation that happened in me, after my recent experience of seeing all of God’s many forms, then merging as One with them into Godhead, is this: I know what I know. 

I knew what I knew before that experience, too, of course; but before, I questioned the validity of what I knew by judging myself as unworthy to know it. I thought I knew what I knew. Now, I know what I know. As long as I only thought I knew what I knew, I always looked to some other source for confirmation of what I knew.

I would ask Swamiji to confirm my truth during darshans, or I would ask the tarot cards to confirm my truth during readings. I didn’t innocently trust myself to know what I knew; I judged myself as less trustworthy. 

Now, there is no more feeling of a need within me to get confirmation or validation from anything or anyone else. I know what I know. Because I know what I know, more and more and more is being revealed to me. Downloads are happening continuously. Bliss is happening continuously. Channeling is happening. Revelations are happening. Why? Because, I Know What I Know. Period.

That is the only difference between me, as I am now, and me, as I was before. How am I now living as my own master? How am I now channeling my Higher Self. How do I know my Truth? 

I know what I know.

And for you, it is the same. To find your own inner master, to channel your own higher self, to experience cosmic downloads, to accurately read tarot cards, and to access long-dormant psychic powers, just remember:

“You know what you know.”

It’s a very simple concept, and it applies to everyone who is without judgement. 

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Please don’t confuse judgement with discernment. 

We must be discerning about what we know. This is the reason for meditation. When we know what we know comes from our heart and our being, then we know what we know is truth not judgement. 

When it is Truth not judgement, we can declare, “I Know What I Know.”

To assist in this process, let me share with you a recent situation that came up between myself and one of my clients. 

This client recently expressed to me that he wants to start channeling, but finds the opening difficult.

 I understood the source of his difficulties in the channeling process when he casually revealed two of his judgements to me.  

Neither of them were ‘good’ or ‘bad’ judgements; they were both neutral, and they came up after his reading, not during. He is a very kind and caring person, so I'm not making a case out of him as an example of someone with 'a lot of judgement;' actually, I'm using these examples because they show us common, everyday judgement.

This should allow you to see what a judgement is:

He said, first, that he can’t understand why I work one day a week at a store called Dragonspace. I asked what he found odd about that, and he said, “It doesn’t look like your kind of place. It looks like a store for Dungeons and Dragons players.” 

It’s not- Dragonspace is actually a store founded by spiritual mythologists, who relished the ancient beliefs about dragons connected to such ideas as guardian energy, and alchemy. It was his judgement to assume that since the store’s name contains, and sign depicts, a dragon, it must be for enthusiasts of mythic role-playing games.  

Another judgement wrapped up within the first was the judgement that it was not 'my kind of place.' What is one person's kind of place, and what is another's? Is a person only able to enjoy the things we imagine he or she enjoys?

It’s a common type of thought coming from typical judgemental mentality: first, judging a place by it’s name. Second, judging whether or not another person will like a place based on that person’s likes and dislikes.

What makes this judgement so inebriating to the knowing of truth is that it assumes it knows what it knows while it doesn't actually know anything.

Swamiji tells a story about a learned professor who visits a Zen master for a lesson. On arrival, the professor lists all of his honours, all his degrees and certificates, all his observations. The master, all the while, prepares tea. As the professor goes on and on listing all that he knows about enlightenment, the path of seeking and realization, the master sets an empty cup in front of him. The master takes the tea pot, and starts to pour. The professor continues to list his qualifications, and the master continues to pour, until the tea is spilling out over the rim of the cup. The professor watches, as the tea overflows past the edge of the saucer, and still, the master keeps pouring. Finally, the contents of the pot itself are nearly emptied, and tea starts to run down the legs of the table to the floor. Finally, the professor asks the master why he doesn't pay attention to what he's doing. He is a Zen master. He knew exactly what he was doing. "When a cup is overflowing, we cannot pour anything more into it." The professor understood. He thought he knew so much, that the Zen master saw him as an unfit student. 

Like that professor filled with thoughts, if we are filled with judgements, our higher minds cannot channel wisdom down to us; that wisdom would only spill out and be lost amidst all the other thoughts.

His other judgement was this: "Don't be offended, but I really don't see 'you' in the painting on your business card."

A number of judgements here: first, who does he think I am? Why does he think I want that painting to represent me? What kind of a person does he see in it?

So much mentality. 

The technique I gave him to break free from his judgementalism will work for all of us, and so, here it is:

First, let go of the idea that you know anybody you think you know.

Every single person alive on planet Earth is the author of his or her own autobiography. We are not the writers of one another’s story, and so, to assume that the character profile we’ve written for another fully encapsulates his or her full identity is completely wrong. We must live as if we are meeting everyone around us for the first time, every time we meet. Because, we are. 

I said to him, “Instead of looking at my painting, and wondering how it fits in with the ideas you’ve built up about me, look at the ideas you’ve built up about me, and expand them to include the painting. Then, let all of them go, and understand that I am not the sum total of all your thoughts about me.”

He was worried that I would be offended by the fact that he didn’t see the painting as a reflection of my being, and even that was another judgement: the judgement that I would be offended by someone else’s judgement.

What I suggested he do as an exercise to let go of all the judgement, was to make a list of all the people he thinks he knows. 

We can all do this. 

List relatives, friends, customers, coworkers. Everyone. Then, list beside each of their names, all the things about them that we don’t feel ‘suit’ them. Maybe one guy has a haircut that doesn’t seem to fit his personality; another might work at a company that doesn’t seem connected with his beliefs; a girl may hang our with a friend who seems wrong for her. Anything about a person we have thought contradicts the person.

The next step is to expand the view we have of all these people, to include the ideas of whatever it is about them we judge as being contradictory. If we can stretch our definition to be inclusive of this seemingly contradictory trait, we can see something closer to the full person.

Take it a step further. Imagine each person on the list suddenly exchanges traits, behaviors and styles with each other person on the list. And expand again. Break all the definitions made about each and every character. 

Masters have been known to suddenly do something extremely unexpected in front of their disciples. They may make blatantly opposing statements, one following the other, and act as if they totally believe each. They may state that there is one thing they will never, ever do, and the next day, that's what they will do. They do this to force the minds of their disciples to open up; to expand; to drop the judgement.

If you don't have the blessing of a master in your life, then by doing this list, you yourself can see the huge benefit of dissolving the thoughts, ideas, and judgements you have of the people around you.

To be without judgement is to simply accept anything, about anybody, at any time, without a thought or opinion on the matter. 

Beyond that, to be without judgement is to accept anything about ourselves at any time.

To channel, to develop psychic ability, to find Truth and ultimately to meet God, we have to be completely open and innocent. Free of judgement.

Why? Because, as long as we are judging, we are not open to receive anything that does not fit into the framework of our limited beliefs.

There is no room for thought of separation beyond the veils of this dimension.

The act discovering inner spiritual Truth is the act of bringing heaven down to earth. We must do it, by dropping our limited, ego-based, judgemental thought.

This is why Swamiji Nithyananda tells us not to condition the master by putting him in a frame.

This is why Jesus says that only those who have become like little children can enter into the kingdom of God.

This is why Osho tell us to be deeply innocent.

This is why Shiva tells Devi to receive.

Receptivity is freedom from judgement. Openness is freedom from judgement. Children are free from judgement. Innocence is free from judgement. 

Be innocent, receptive and unconditional and know Truth. 

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Each of us has, on some level of our being, an idea that we seek love, acceptance, truth, bliss. We keep these yearnings hidden, all the while craving for them to be validated. We catch glimpses of understanding, then relegate those to the depths of unspoken fancy. We wait until some being whom we perceive as higher, or more in tune with truth than us, confirms what we already know. 

Essentially, the confirmation will always validate, We Know What We Know.

This is the blessing of a master. Until we know what we know, the master will remind us, though clicks of wisdom and energy transfers and encouragement, to get back into the mode of knowing.

To be as a master, we must reconcile our inner desire, with itself. We must have an unsullied inner space. 

We may have this as an inner desire: “I want to know God,” while a conflicting judgement tells us, “I don’t deserve to know God because I am not a saint.” 

One inner desire may be, “I wish to have smooth relationships,” while a contradictory judgement negates it: “The people around me are dysfunctional, so I must have dysfunctional relationships with them.”

We might know, “I am as telepathic and empathetic as any professional psychic out there,” but a contradictory judgement says, “It takes hard work to tune in to telepathy and empathy... I’m not cut out for that.”

We struggle, on and on, trying to figure ourselves out amidst the inner tug of war between conflicting hopes and fears, dreams and nightmares, desires and guilts, Truth and judgement.

Masters, like Nithyanandaji, live conflict free lives. 

But we will miss their deep and profound teachings if we only seek their approval without also following their example!

How many times has Swamiji told us that we must not idolize Shiva as a god, but instead, learn from Shiva as a teacher!

Be as innocent as a child, as receptive as a Devi, and as nonjudgemental as a saint. Say Shivoham. I AM That I AM. I know what I know. Ahambrahmasmi. 

If you can say those words without thinking about how others will react to your affirmation; without judging yourself as worthy or unworthy of their profound Truth, then Tattvamasi- you have found your Inner Master.

Letting Go of the Form of the Master

There's not a shadow of a doubt in my mind that Swamiji is a complete enlightened avatar; a full incarnation of Divinity; a Master who can lead humanity to eternal bliss. From the moment I first laid eyes on Him, I knew He was all that and more. Since Babaji had led me to Him, and all my guides had confirmed His sanctity, I surrendered to Him completely and followed Him with pure, unquestioning devotion. 

  

Now, filled with gratitude for all that He has added to my life, it's time for me to let go of Swamiji's form, and follow my own divine guidance.

This is not a kutarka decision; it's simply my next step. The only way for me to do what I came here to do.

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The word God has been cheapened by religious dogma, philosophically killed by Nietzsche, likened unto Fuck by Osho, and demonized by those who claim to live in righteous fear of the supreme being to whom they petition by it. Even still, I'm going to use the word God- limited though it has become- to refer to the benevolent, omnipotent, omnipresent Source, who is constantly radiating love and light. Rather than say, 'the conscious creator of all-that-is,' 'the great I AM' or 'Love -Light-Source' I will use the name God, because the Great-Source-of-All-That-Is was introduced to me by no other name.

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Suddenly, a procession of immaculate beauty danced a celebratory dance across the infinite space laid out before me, spiraling upwards and onwards, to the peak of a sacred and wondrous white mount. This heavenly parade included masters, angels, deities and saints from all cultures. Founders of religions together with anonymous assistants, recognized emissaries of divine light, intergalactic beings and haloed ascendants of the human race, alike. Joyfully I watched, as they danced their dance of divine glory. Twirling, flying, leaping! They were varied and individually unique as ever a group could be, yet they were all unified, harmonious, One in Love. Though some were large and others small, none exhibited even an ounce of ego. There were no pedestals, no spotlights, no onlookers but myself- and even to me, they didn't pander or fawn. They didn't call out and wave, nor shy away and ignore. Simply they smiled, with the entirety of their beings, and danced their dance of pure fulfillment. For an inestimable measure of timelessness, I watched, enchanted and elevated by their synchronous grace. My soul expanded to reach for them, and the joy they poured back to me in return was an embrace beyond any Love I have ever felt before.

Only when the recognized forms of the Hindu deities appeared, I became aware of myself as separate, humbled by the presence of such renowned and revered, iconic beings. I had a verbalized thought, for the first time since the dawning of this majestic experience, and it came like an unwelcome guest against the calm reverie I was so sweetly enjoying.

My recognition formed remembrance of the words, "Shiva and Durga and Ganesha... I should bow down." They paid no attention to my attempted humility, but simply danced with all the rest, as joyously as the others. 

The Voice spoke exactly as I realized- languagelessly again, without need to verbalize the knowing that had replaced the labelling- that truly all the deities, and all the self realized souls, of all the cultures, on all of the worlds, work together. Hierarchies though there may be on the physicalized plane of Earth, in the realm beyond the borders of embodied limitation, all who exist to serve as One are equal in One, like team-mates filling roles appropriate to each one's talents and abilities, striving towards a common goal.

The Voice was thunderous, all pervasive, coming from everywhere at once. It didn't really speak, so much as permeate my entire being with it's smooth tenor accoustics.

"God is beyond even the Hindu deities."

As the Voice spoke, the Hindu deities, and with them, all the others- masters, angels, interdimensional lights, galactic beings, haloed saints, and ascended souls- turned their attention upwards, and raised their palms in excited, anticipatory surrender.

Beyond them appeared a most brilliant light; distant at first, but growing closer and therefore larger and brighter. Golden like the sun and supremely beneficent to behold, as if purifying and deeply healing the eyes blessed enough to land gaze upon it. This Light was the opposite of blinding; to see it is to know bliss unlike any other. More quenching than water is to thirst; more filling than limitless fruit is to hunger; more gratifying than a lovers touch to lust... this Light was simultaneously tantalizing and satiating to all senses as it came down upon us in a twirl. To see such Light is to know what the heart has yearned for always. Seeing it awakens deep passion followed by complete relief, desire followed by unimaginable indulgence, over and over again, in rapid succession, with an exponentially increasing climax as it grows closer and brighter and more beautiful... Then suddenly, its grandeur overtook we who were surrendered, and dissolved us into pure sensory perfection.

God.

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I opened my tear-filled eyes and found myself in this body again, laying in bed, exhilarated and ecstatic beyond anything I had ever felt before.

It was the Darshan to end all Darshans.

Nothing in life has felt the same since. No chore has been a burden; no thought a disturbance; no encounter unpleasant.

Each and every cell is alive with sentient remembrance of the One who created All, and the All who merged with the One. The One who awaits the return of the rest of the All, for whose homeward guidance those who have already merged back into One, have but temporarily separated again.

There is a reason why so many mystics simply dissolve into tears when asked to recount their experience of this Loving, Parental, All-encompassing Light. To put into words such an experience is like attempting to paint a portrait of the most beautiful face, without enough colours on the palette to properly capture the subtle highlights, or space on the canvas for the dimensions, or motor skills in the hand to do it justice. Words were used in this blog only as placeholders, providing comparatively dry description, until the experience itself can be had by the rest of the All. 

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The day after this rapture, I knew my charge. My work- if you can call something joyful 'work'- was made clear to me. 

All along I had known, somehow, that the time to go beyond the form of the Master would be upon me only after I had seen God. That only then, I would be ready to venture forth the teachings of the being working through this body called Sarah, or Sudevi, and carry out the plans that my guides, my Arcturian family, and my earthly messengers have labored long to awaken within me.

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That same night, a synchronous dream was dreamt by one of my sisters in Nithyananda.

"We were walking on a path together." She told me. "You were encouraging me to continue to pursue enlightenment, and somehow, as we walked, we were moving through higher dimensions. At the end, you moved ahead and I couldn't go with you, but I was perfectly at peace with it. I understood that all of our paths are different, and I was grateful to have shared this truth with you."

It's a mutual gratitude.

Her dream illustrates so beautifully that each of us is on our own path of enlightenment. The path, that is one and the same as the Master, is a river. Some will ebb with it while others flow; some will glide beneath the surface while others are tossed back and forth with the crashing rapids; some will meander and others will skip playfully across the surface in a dash towards the open ocean that is God. Each one, on a unique and perfect individual path of enlightenment.

So long as Swamiji is your Master, hold on to Him tightly. He is the River and also your life-vest in turbulent tides.

Only when you know- without even the slightest doubt- that the Ocean at the River's end has engulfed you, playfully and gratefully let go His form; and frolic in the water at His side.

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A psychospiritual question philosophizes, 

"If God and the Master stand before you, to whom do you bow down?"

The answer seems to be neither.

God and the Master cannot stand next to One Another. The Master will simply disappear into God as God rushes towards the Master. And if your openness, unconditional trust, reverence and love bring you to bear witness to such a glorious event, then you, too, will also be engulfed- so powerfully, that the act of bowing down will not only be needless, but also, impossible.

GOD((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((MASTER))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))GOD

God and the Master stand before you as One, calling you to merge back into Them.

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Jai Paramahamsa Sri Sri Sri Nithyananda Swami-ki!

Thank You, Gurudeva, for creating the space within me to say,

Aham Saraswathi.

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After all this, some might be wondering why the necessity to drop the form of the Master.

There's a myriad of reasons; the most important one being this: It's vital for me to now fully disclose my Arcturian origin, and share the teachings of that magnificent star system, Arcturus a.k.a. Swathi. It will be a blessing for people here to understand the Arcturian connection to the myths of the ancients (particularly in the Vedic civilization) so that the legends can be revived and brought into the accessible now. The deities are back, and the sacred history is repeating, updated to fit 'modern' times.

So long as I am known as a Nithyananda Acharya, there will be a possibility that my teachings will be confused with the teachings of the Master. Some will seem quite 'out there,' covering ground untouched in His many discourses. I don't want to run the risk of giving Swamij a questionable reputation or a bad name by sharing what I have to share under an implied connection to Him. It's important for me to be accountable for everything I say, and not leave room for the misunderstanding that my words are being sent to me etherically from Him. (In the way He guides LBP Acharyas who conduct meditation classes in His name.) None of the messages I'm receiving 'clash' with His teachings, and in fact, it's unanimous amongst my guides that this world not only needs Swamiji's Avatar, but also, needs as many people as possible to have His darshan and attend His programs. However, my job is not to teach His lessons, but rather, to teach different but harmonious lessons.

Besides the revelation of the Arcturian mission work, the rapturous experience I described above took place in the pre-dawn hours of the last Saturday morning before Swamiji's Kailash Yatra. That evening, the sangha gathered to watch a weekly live discourse, followed by eN Kriya Initiation. During that discourse, Swamiji asked for "everyone who feels they are not yet enlightened"- who feel they had not yet reached the state of permanent bliss- to raise their hands. After taking a count, no doubt of how many hands were not in the air, He chided us, saying, "The people who didn't raise their hands aren't enlightened; they're just lazy."

I knew, as He said it, that it would no longer be appropriate for me to sit at His lotus feet.

The following weekend, one swami from the organization came to town for a visit. It was a swami whom I had felt very put off by in the past. Swamiji says that when the ultimate happens, we can put our truth to the test by exposing ourselves to others with whom we've had disagreements. He says that if the enlightenment is real, then we won't feel anger, resentment or animosity towards those we once would have clashed with or avoided. I decided to use this swami's visit as a test. If I had felt any inkling of a need to hide from him, hang my head in shame, or run away due to his past chastisements, then it would have been pertinent for me to continue to be in the sangha until those negative ego feelings be transformed into unconditional love and appreciation for All. Actually seeing him, though, and hearing him speak, revealed something to me beyond anything I had imagined possible. Suddenly, I understood that he had goaded me no differently than he goads everyone else. It became clear that his intentions are not to ostracize or alienate, but- in his own way, no doubt under the influence of the Master- to push others to the point of either fully declaring their Truth or else surrendering their ego claims. Whether he himself does this willfully or whether Swamiji works through him to do it was unclear to me, but regardless, I felt neither negative emotions towards him nor bland acceptance of him. Instead, I felt inspired by his devotion, and moved by the quality of deep peace visible in his eyes... no doubt, this deep peace is the result of Swamiji's powerful divine presence in his life. My ego was clinging too strongly to the idea of being victimized by him in the past to see the archetype that he embodies- the breaker of egos; the bouncer of enlightenment; the strong and determined Nandi who will lay down his everything at the feet of Shiva. (And how silly we would be to expect a 21st century Nandi to embrace us, when the original Nandi would not even embrace Devi herself, but merely tolerated her at Shiva's behest.)

Love, Light, and Arcturian Blessings to All who read this!

Moon Goddess

As I was walking with one of my clients this evening, I noticed the brilliance of a nearly-full moon rising to the East, as the bright summer sun was setting to the west. They were at even height in the sky, illuminating and marking our path, like cosmic gate-keepers suspended on either side of the bridge over Granville Island. When I pointed this out to her, she got excited, and told me about her plans to watch a meteor shower on the weekend.

"It's too bad there's a full moon the same night as the shower, though," she said, "because it might distort our view of the shooting stars..."

As she said this, a vision of her cards came back to my inner sight.

"In your reading, you just pulled two cards that literally illustrate your weekend plans. 'Existence,' and 'Flowering!'" Remember the symbolism of the Existence card- a lone figure sits in meditation, while a shooting star streaks across the cosmic sky before him; and in Flowering, a goddess emerges from a lotus flower, crowned by the glowing full moon. The combination of these two energies is actually very good- the full moon will energetically work to keep you in tune with divine femininity, which will amplify and increase the beauty of your stargazing experience."

"Sudevi-" she asked, after a few moments of watching the sun and the moon, "how do people think of these sorts of things? I mean... energy, and symbols, and the divine?"

"You know," I explained, "mystical understandings of energy and divinity can't really be grasped by linear or analytical thought; they just land in the consciousness of those who are open to higher ideas. Have you ever heard Nithyananda mention a 'Cosmic Download' in one of his discourses?"

She laughed, and said, "No."

"He's mentioned it a few times, usually when someone asks how he 'knows' something- especially when answering mystical questions. He doesn't have to go looking for answers in textbooks or encyclopedias, because any information he needs will be 'downloaded' to his consciousness from a divine source. Many brilliant scientists have experienced something similar, too- eureka moments, when suddenly, answers come into their minds without prior thought, seemingly out of nowhere. The next step, after having one of these spontaneous knowings happen, is to look for proof to back it up.

"Anyhow, the wisdom we have about lunar energy, divinity and symbolic connections comes in this  sort of epiphanous and eurekan way, (why not coin a couple of terms?) where suddenly a mystic just knows that the moon is a catalyst for awakening the divine feminine energy, and then after knowing this, proves it by finding examples of the moons feminine connection."

"I see," she said. "People don't think about spiritual energy; they just suddenly know about it, and then use the thought process to find the proof to back up the knowing once it's already known."

"Exactly!"

(As an interesting aside, Einstein called this instant knowing intuition. In a discourse about intellect and intuition, he is famously quoted as saying,"We have created a society that honours the servant and has forgotten the gift." This is especially true in academia and the scientific community. The intellectual approach to knowledge- slow and methodical, based on research, slow study and controlled tests- is considered 'valid,' while intuition, and sudden realizations of truth- which come as voices, visions, and inner knowings- are scrutinized and suspected; often even labeled insane... Ironically enough, Einstein defined insanity as doing the same thing over and over but expecting a different result each time; which sounds a lot like methodical research, slow study, and controlled tests!)

"Does this happen for everything, or just spiritual information?" she asked.

"You know, that's something that's fascinated me for a long time now!" I answered. "Once, when I was in the ashram, I asked Swamiji a question about a petition that had been faxed to Vancouver for all of us to sign. I asked him whether that was the same petition we were about to sign in Bidadi- just so that we wouldn't discredit it by signing twice. He said, 'I don't know, Ma- let me find out and get back to you.' Anyhow- I had heard him give unimaginably brilliant answers to much more complicated questions than that before, so it got me thinking- does he only download mystical information? Suddenly, though- as if by download!- a thought came to me about my own work. Whenever a client is sitting across from me, words will literally form in my mind, and whatever that person needs to know will be made available in my consciousness. In this way, I've answered questions about business moves, dreams, celestial connections, illnesses, often going into specific medical terminology without any prior knowledge of the subject. But, whenever someone asks me a question just to test me- something like, 'What's my mothers maiden name?' my mind will go blank. I've come to understand that downloading works to answer all the questions that don't have an immediately accessible answer through standard means. So, since all Swamiji would have to do to find out about the petition was call the documents office, there was no need for Him to download the answer. And the same way, when you come in for a reading, if you ask me to explain to you something that you don't already know, words will flow from me until the answer is clear; but if you ask me something you already know the answer to, it won't come to me. Existence doesn't do anything redundant."

"Fascinating..."

We walked a little further, and she asked, "Can you tell me a bit more about the moon and feminine energy?"

Considering most of my mystical knowledge comes from my work with tarot and oracle cards, my own intuitive downloads, and my guru Nithyanandaji, I could tell this client was surprised when I started to tell her the story of a Catholic priest to answer her question.

***

Last Christmas, my mom- a devout Catholic school teacher- took me to mass. It was a sentimental thing for her to do- she had taken me to church every Sunday when I was little. Although I really wasn't expecting anything this time, the priest really got my attention when he started to deliver his sermon.

"A few nights ago, I saw the most beautiful happening in the night sky.' Father Tim said this in a wide-eyed, spellbound sort of a way. "I was out for a walk, when suddenly I found myself captivated by the beauty of the full moon. After watching it for a few seconds, I noticed a faint reddish shadow start to obscure it's edge. The shadow grew- slowly and steadily- until the entire lunar surface was hidden from sight. Then, as slowly as it had taken over, the shadow started to pass, revealing, sliver by sliver, the full moon's radiance once again. I felt such gratitude to witness this unexpected event! Such gratitude to have gone out for a walk at exactly the right time on exactly the right night to see a total lunar eclipse."

As he told his story of moongazing, Father Tim had the same quality of spiritual enthusiasm in his voice that I had come to love so much when listening to masters deliver discourses. It was the tone of voice Osho had used after his period of silence, when he told his disciples about his enlightenment experience; the tone Swamiji had used when describing his youthful encounter with Shiva as Arunagiri Yogeshwara; the tone Vivekananda used in his first American speach, when he had compelled all to 'Arise! Awake! And sleep not until the goal is reached.' When mystics recount their deep and spiritual stories of realization, they make the energy of their stories available to all those who listen. My youthful break from the Catholic church had created so much distrust in the institution, that I was literally shocked to hear a voice of enlightening clarity echo the walls.

Father Tim's reverence for the beauty of the lunar eclipse was such a joy to listen to, that I couldn't imagine hearing anything better. But as he went on, his story was so much more than even that:

"I'm not sure how long I had stood watching the moon. I was thinking about Christmas, planning my sermon, just enjoying nature... when suddenly, the thought of sacred maternity popped into my mind. I remembered Mary, remembered the essential role she played in the Nativity; remembered Mary, whom we hail as the Mother of God.'

At this point, I was literally sitting on the edge of my pew. Of course, I had heard priests refer to Mary as the Mother of God before- but always in a dry, academic tone of voice. Father Tim's timbre was far from dry...

"We must remember that Mary was chosen to carry and deliver a child who who was the Son of God Almighty. Mary is, according to all authorities of our faith, undeniably, the Mother of the Son of God."

I held my breath, and Father Tim said the most powerful thing I had ever heard a priest say.

"How could she be the Mother of the Son of God unless Mary herself was equal to God? Every mother and father are equally needed to birth their child into the world. In that sense, along with God, Mary co-created the life of Jesus."

My eyes were filled with tears, and my smile stretched wide across my face, as he said it one more time for impact.

"Mary the Mother, along with our heavenly Father, worked together as co-creators to give us Jesus, the savior."

***

My client, herself familiar with the patriarchal closed-mindedness of mosts Catholics, was speechless.

"Father Tim gave an eloquent and powerful message about God as more than patriarch alone, but as a combined parental force- Father and Mother. Translated into C atholic terminology, and using the characters familiar to all Catholic families, he told us exactly what all the new age teachers and popular mystics around the world declare- that God is Yin and Yang together, male and female, Shiva and Shakti, Osiris and Isis. Never before in my Catholic-raised life had I heard a priest say that Mary- a mortal woman- was equal to God in Heaven. Such a statement would, at one time, have been considered blasphemy. But at this magical mass, the Saturday evening before Christmas, the entire congregation listened with baited breath as Father Tim explained to them a truth that had been hiding in plain sight in scriptures all along. The Mother of God is God in Mother form."

"Wow..."

"Wow is right! And to top it all off, this sermon didn't come to the priest from a book. It didn't come from a dream or from a long night thinking up an appropriate message. It came as a download, hand in hand with a beautiful lunar eclipse. Father Tim may not have known that shamanic religions connect the full moon with sacred feminine energy. He may not have known that the Moon is to the Goddess what the Sun is to the God. He may not have known that mystics around the world meditate on the moon's cycle to get in tune with the voice of the Mother. But still, this Catholic priest had a direct experience of the divine feminine while he openly admired the full moon. Mary herself spoke to him that night. She reminded him of the importance of a mother, the necessity of a mother, when any new era is to be born."

My client looked as touched as I had been when listening to the words of the wise priest.

She said, "All these mystics and shamans who say the goddess is connected to the full moon... they just know it from experience. But this sermon Father Tim gave is even stronger proof than theirs, because it happened to him without his seeking it! Sudevi- wow. Thank you for this story- now I understand completely how it works. People don't just decide to think about energy or divinity and theorize or philosophize. They experience profound moments of connection, and then- after experiencing- connect the dots as to what the experiences mean. The moon is a catalyst for divine feminine awareness not because some new agers think it's a pretty symbol, but because it just is."

***

My mom and I walked to her car in amicable silence after mass that evening.

As we buckled up, she asked, ever the knowing mother, "So... what do you think of our new parish priest?"

In the excited tone of a child who had just unwrapped the most amazing Christmas gift, I said, "Father Tim is truly a mystic! He is fully in tune with the Divine. The Goddess herself- as Mary- speaks to him!"

"I had a feeling you might not be bored at church tonight."

When I told my mom that many modern mystics and 'new age' teachers are heralding the times we're now living in as the return of the Goddess, when the Divine Mother will claim her title along with the Divine Father as co-creator of the World, and that this message is said to come from meditating on the beauty of the moon, she shared in my delight.

The gap that has long existed between patriarchal religious politics and feminine spiritual whimsy is being bridged. Now is the time.

***

As a believer in my tarot practice, I consult my cards whenever I make a new move- whether to do with my personal life, career, or spiritual path. So, tonight, before writing what you've just read, I pulled out my deck, shuffled, and asked:

Should I write a blog about the full moon and divine femininity?

I gasped aloud when I pulled in reply a card called Patience. One of the most lovely cards in the Osho Zen Tarot, the image on the card of Patience is that of a beautiful pregnant woman. She sits serenely, surrounded by blossoming flowers, her hands gently supporting her round belly. Her eyes are closed, and the corners of her pretty mouth are turned up in a knowing smile. Above her, as the only other feature of the card, are the phases of the moon. Arcing across the sky above her, from waxing crescent to the left, to full right above her head, and waning to her right... The phases of the moon. In short, a lunar cycle at a glance; exactly what's seen in an eclipse. She is the Moon Goddess- a gentle, loving Mother; patient because she knows her delivery will happen exactly when it's meant to happen.

There's no need to rush, no need to slow down- perfect, like the cycles of the moon, are all things born from compassion. Saraswathi is joining Brahma; Lakshmi is joining Vishnu, Shakthi is joining Shiva. Whether we call her Mary, Devi, Isis, White Buffalo Calf Woman, or simply the Mother, she is patiently waiting to claim her place in our hearts- not next to, but one with, God. Mother and Father, Yin and Yang, Goddess and God.

***

TThe next time there's a full moon in the sky, you yourself can connect with the Goddess. Whether you call her Mary, Devi, Hina, Ishtar, Isis, Diana, Saraswathi, or just Mother... Look up, and feel the presence of her glowing benevolence. Feel her loving eyes gaze back at you. No doubt, her blessingreach us here on Earth as the radiant rays emanating from the full moon. (Co-created, of course, with the Father, whose solar light illuminates her otherwise modest and hidden face.)

Teleported by Vibhooti

While Swamiji was busy teleporting vibhooti out of the ashram, Vibhooti was busy teleporting me into it! 

Yes, you read that correctly.

I'd like to share this wild experience with you, that has completely blown my mind. (And Ma Nthya Vibhooti's mind, too!) It seems worth sharing, because it's proof that We are One- a belief that is dear to my heart (hence the title of this blog) and now, more and more clearly, this One-ness is not only an understanding, but also an experience.

As you probably know, Ma Vibhooti is back at the Bidadi ashram, providing Slovakian translations for a group of Inner Awakening participants. Like we all do when someone we know is going to Bidadi, I asked her if she would hug the Banyan Tree for me, and tell Dakshinamoorthi that I love Him.

About two nights later, while doing the 'Beam of Light' samyama process Swamiji initiated us into, (whereby we envision a light beam extending from the crown of our head, which is enhanced by wearing the mala as a circlet) something very unusual happened. Normally, when I do this (or any other samyama) I keep my eyes closed; but this time, I heard an inner voice say, "Open your eyes." 

When I opened them, I saw the most beautiful being of golden light standing at the foot of my bead. As if transfixed, I watched the magnificent presence of this golden light being, until the same inner voice said, "Now, close your eyes."

I closed them, and fell back into my meditative space, and the inner voice said, 'Watch."

Since the voice didn't specify for me to open my eyes, I 'watched' my closed eyelids. My inner space started to expand, until I was not just watching my eyelids, but simultaneously seeing every direction, and felt the inner space expanding. Then the being of golden light merged into me. He seemed to come in through my eyelids, which were like a mere smokescreen separating two forms of reality. Although the eyelids were there, I could see right through them, so that my inner world, and also the outer world, blended together. In time, the golden being dissipated until it had evenly permeated not only my entire body, but also, the entirety of my expanded awareness, for which I couldn't determine a starting point or end; I felt it had become a part of me, and that we were infinite.

"Now open your eyes again," the inner voice said.

When I opened my eyes again, instantly I returned to my usual state, and my bedroom was back to normal. ('Normal' meaning, there weren't any celestial golden light-beings! At least, not that I could see...) Just to test myself, I closed my eyes again, but this time, I couldn't see through the eyelids, and the vision was only singularly focused. Since the experience had 'ended' I took my legs out of padmasana, lay back, and went to sleep.

All that night (April 7th) I had the most incredible dreams. All of them took place in the Bidadi Ashram. 

In the first dream, I was sitting in the front seat of a car. 'We' (me and one ashramite, who was driving) were idling in front of the Manasa Sarovar. I felt extreme bliss, and told him to just keep the car there. My gaze was transfixed on the island in the middle of the Sarovar, where I could simultaneously see multiple 'other realities' super-imposed, one on top of another. 

(If you've been to Bidadi, you'll know the place. The Manasa Sarovar is the small lake next to the Vaidya Sarovar. In the center, there's a circular island that Swamiji sits on to conduct the Zen Tea session for Inner Awakening.)

The 'scenes' that were super-imposed on top of this view were very mystical. You can imagine it like this: If you've ever looked at a 3-d scene through s 'view-finder' toy, you know that what you're looking at is a holographic image. Now, imagine looking at that kind of a holographic image, and behind it, there is another holographic image, and behind that, another, and another, and another. (Or- even better than  'behind,' we can say, along with it, another. They all occupied the same space.) It seems impossible, but somehow, these multiple realities were all together, yet each one was distinguishable from each other one. If you've ever looked at your reflection on a window pane, it was kind of like that, multiplied- you see your reflection on the window, and also the scene behind the glass.

In one 'scene' a giant tree grew out from the central island; in another simultaneous scene, the same island was bare. In one scene, a group of 'water spirits' were playing in the lake, but simultaneously, the lake was empty. Some scenes were likened to "other times" and some were contemporary. Along with this, there was a hazy memory of a past life that's too complex to even try to describe. 

After a while, we drove a few feet, and stopped again in front of the Vaidya Sarovar. After looking joyfully at the Ananda Lingam, I rested my head on the car window, and positioned myself to see the clouds in the sky. It was twilight, and though the sky was gray, I thought, very deliberately, "This is really happening. You can't judge the reality of a vision based on the colour theory while looking at a gray sky." The thought came as a joke, as if I was making fun of myself for having a doubt on the grounds that later, I might wake up and assume it was only a dream, since the gray sky looked to be in black and white.

(Swamiji has told us that when we see Him in a dream, if He appears before us in full colour, then it's not just an ordinary dream, it's a vision. It seems, through my own thoughts, I was telling myself that I was having a vision, not just a dream. It's funny, because all of the various scenes that I had witnessed over the Manasa Sarovar appeared in full colour, but only while looking at the gray sky, the thought came up that it was happening in sleep state. Along with that came a very, very intense realization that this is how Masters sees the world: as a multi-dimensional happening. It wasn't a verbalized realization, it was more of an 'ah-ha' moment. Like, if you hear someone describe snow, but you've never seen it, you might imagine little ice pellets, until one day, you see flakes, and realize, "Oh- so this is snow.") 

Then the dream changed. In an instant, like the snap of a finger, I went from being inside the car, to being outside in the open air, by the Banyan Tree. I walked around the tree, hugged it, connected with it, and simply enjoyed it's presence. I heard 'myself' speaking to it, but paid no attention to anything 'I' was saying. Next, I climbed up to Dakshinamoorthi, took His blessing, and said, "Sudevi loves you." After that, I sat down to meditate.

This is where the dream gets very ephemeral: from within 'myself,' I jumped out, and rushed back to Dakshinamoorthi. I hugged Him tightly and felt intense ecstasy! I was suddenly so thrilled to be there that I can't even describe it in words. It was like my being found fulfillment, knowing that I was really there once again, at the ashram. After hugging Dakshinamoorthi, I prostrated to Him, and went back into myself under the Banyan tree. From then, I had no more dreams.

The next morning, a message came from Vibhooti. She told me that she had visited the Banyan Tree and Dakshinamoorthi for me, and asked me to watch for a sign to make sure they got my message! 

Without hesitation, I wrote her a detailed description of my ashram dreams. 

What she wrote back about this was simply amazing: at exactly the same time I had these dreams, she was there! Not only that, she had done exactly what I had dreamed and in the same order I had dreamed it! (Meaning, first she went around the banyan tree, then to Dakshinamoorthi, then to sit under the tree.) In the note I sent her, I said that when I woke up, I thought it was odd to have said, "Sudevi loves you," instead of "I love you." Of course, that's was because Vibhooti had said, "Sudevi loves you." 

As if that's not enough, it gets even more amazing: when she sat down to meditate, she had a thought that instead of just giving a message to Dakshinamoorthi for me, it would be better if I told Him that I love Him for myself. So, she set a strong intention for me to come through her body, and go to Him. This part, I'll let you read in her own words:

"I decided to close my eyes, and let your being come out of my being and do what it wants. What you did is you were dressed in a white gown, and a white shawl, just like the one you are on the picture with Dakshinamurty during LBE. You were not wasting your time, you walked out of my soul, came up to Dakshinamurty, hugged him, you were not very decent, you were very touchy and huggy, you hugged him tightly. You weren't speaking, you were expressing everything through your movements and energy only. I know you bowed down to him in you heart, said you loved him, thanked him for his presence in your life. Then you came back and settled inside my body again.

It was an amazing experience for me. Of course, at that time I had no idea how real it was, but now I know.

In the mean time when I was there the evening arti started. So I went to the temple and sat at the side of the main sancti sanctorum, on the left side of Anandeshwara and Anandeshwari. 

I then asked him for a special sign for Sudevi in any form that you would be able to recognize to prove his presence in Vancouver with you. I said that you are a very special person to me and that I really want you to have this experience."

There is no doubt in my mind that all this really happened, since my dream matched perfectly with Vibhooti's experience. Although I knew I had asked her to pass a message of Love from me to the Deities, we didn't plan what time she would do this, and so I made no subconscious or unconscious attempt to imagine her doing it. (And, for the record, I'm a little bit embarrassed that she says I wasn't very decent with Dakshinamoorthi, lol. I don't think I did anything inappropriate, though- nothing we don't all do when we hug a beloved one after a long time apart!)

I am so, so, so grateful to Vibhooti for giving me this beautiful gift, of allowing me to come to Bidadi through her body. I don't even know what kind of a siddhi she has (or we both have together?) to do this, but no doubt, it comes from Swamiji. Thank you, my Nithya Sister Vibhooti, and thank you Gurudeva Nithyananda!

(Other synchronicities with Vibhooti: I drew the card of Vishnu for her from the Ascended Master Oracle, and in her reading, wrote that Vishnu is with her. She wrote back that Vishnu is her ishta devata! She told me that she was concerned about the extreme heat, so I told her I would pray to Babaji to send Himalayan cold front down to Bidadi. She said, she had been praying for Himalayan cold! That night, when I offered dinner to my picture of Swamiji, I set with it a glass og water full of ice cubes. Usually, when I make an offering to Swamiji, I don't put ice in the water, because He has said this is not yogic. So, as I offered Him the glass, I said, "Please give this to Vibhooti as a cool breeze or a cooling cloud." Swamiji's voice came into my mind, mocking me, saying, "So, now you make offerings to your friend through the Master, instead of to the Master through your friend, ma?" I apologized, and gave also a glass of ice-less water, as He likes it! I sat down to have my own food and water, with the same number of cubes in my glass. Something remarkable happened: within minutes, all the ice in the glass before Swamiji's picture was melted, and all the ice in my own glass was still solid! As if the heat of Bidadi had melted it, while my own was still just in Vancouver. The next message I received from Vibhooti, she was thanking me for my prayers, and saying that Bidadi had a cool breeze and some clouds to block the intense sun!)

***

What I find most astounding about this phenomenon between Vibhooti and me, is that in my dream, I didn't feel, 'Vibhooti is walking around the tree; Vibhooti is telling Dakshinamoorthi I love Him; I'm walking out of Vibhooti's body;" I felt as if I myself was doing all those things. Similarly, in her experience, she did all those things naturally. She walked around the tree, hugged Dakshinamoorthi, then sat down. She didn't feel 'me presence' in her, until she willed for me to come through her; only then she felt me as seperate, when I came out from within her soul. 

This really confirms something the masters have been telling us for ages- We Are All One! There was no "Vibhooti" and "Sudevi," there was just awareness walking around the Banyan Tree, hugging the Deity, sitting... 

When I shared this experience with Bhakthiroopini over the phone, she told me that during the Himalaya Yatra, Debbie looked at Raquel, and was amazed, because for a moment, she felt she was looking at herself. At another point in time, Raquel looked at Bhakthiroopini, and felt, Bhakthiroopini was herself. (The two of them had a beautiful exchange after that. Raquel called Bhakthiroopini "Raquel" and Bhakthiroopini called Raquel "Abirami"- which was then her name.) Another time, I was walking with Bhakthiroopini, and Mahima looked at us, and for a moment saw we were identical- looking so similar we could be sisters.

Somehow, through the power of Swamiji's grace, it seems our sangha is not only merging into Him, but also, into each other!

We've reached a point in our spiritual love that the disciple-disciple relationship is Heaven! We are truly Family! We are Love! We are One! 

In the early days of Dhyanapeetam, Swamiji said in a discourse that the connection we have must be with the Master, and only with the Master. That Master-Disciple relationship is Heaven, but Disciple-Disciple relationship is Hell. He said, we should be careful with whom we share our experiences, because some will judge or hurt us if they don't understand, and others may try to take away our deep connection out of jealousy, and others still will try to drag us into worldly affairs if we speak about only spirituality. 

How blessed are we to now be at a place where there seems to be no distinction between the Master -Disciple relationship, and the Disciple-Disciple one! We are All embodying Swamiji in different ways, and We are All able to see one another as Divine! 

This is the highest Prema Bhakthi! For me, this is the highest proof that Swamiji's grace is really landing on us, and His teachings are really working. Only a true Incarnation can create a sangha who love each other so deeply as to see themselves in each other. (And not in the sense that we see our faults in one another, but that we see our divinity reflected!) 

Remember, He once said that it's easy to love Him, but hard to love others? Thank you, thank you Nithyananda family, for proving that we can love each other!

If you're wondering whether or not you love your sisters and brothers in Nithyananda, here's what I mean:

Have you watched the emotionally charged video of Nithya Devi with kumkum on her palms, and felt, truly felt, the intense sacred sentiments she is so beautifully sharing? Seen her tears, and cried with her? Seen her reddened hands, and felt as if our own hands had been blessed? This is love for the Master, and also, love for one of His sincere devotees, Nithya Devi.

How many of us read Ravikiran Bankapur's Facebook notes, and get clicks from his wisdom? This is catching the enlightened understanding not only from Swamiji, but also, from one of His sincere devotees who truly understands the concepts and techniques of Living Enlightenment, and shares them through his own unique perception.

How many of us look at each other's pictures on Facebook and feel, these are our very own pictures? For example, the lovely photo of Manas and Jen's engagement posted by Ma Atmaniranjani. It is 'her' son who is getting married, but boy- do we ever feel 'her' maternal joy when we see the happy couple! This is love for the Master, and also love for an enlightened family being born out of His sangha! 

How many of us read the experiences and miracles posted on www.nithyananda.net and feel blessed to be here now? Even though when we read these blogs, we are reading "somebody else's" experiences, we know that because "somebody else" shares, we are also experiencing! 

I could list examples all night long, and still only scratch the surface of the intense love that is flooding the planet now through all of us in this blissful community...

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you, dear Nithyananda Family, for being a living example a true eNlightened community! Thank you for bringing the Sathya Yuga into the Kali Yuga.

Namaskar. I bow down in appreciation to All of Us- We are One. Nithyanandam!